Em algum lugar do passado

De repente, tudo no ambiente pode mudar.
A conversa se exclui automaticamente. Os risos não têm mais importância. As amigas ficam lá na mesa achando minha reação muito estranha.
Nada como ouvir a voz de uma cantora querida e aquela canção antiga... Natalie Merchant e seu 'River' do álbum "Tigerlily".

E foi como se o momento se revelasse outro: o repeat incansável no Ipod alheio, as amigas distantes, o fim da conversa.
Tudo vale a pena quando ela canta.
Tudo vale a pena quando nada mais importa a não ser o sentimento.

E a letra de mais uma música antiga:

My skin
(Natalie Merchant)

"Take a look at my body
Look at my hands
There's so much here
That I don't understand

Your face saving promises
Whispered like prayers
I don't need them
I don't need them

I've been treated so wrong
I've been treated so long
As if I'm becoming untouchable

Contempt loves the silence
It thrives in the dark
With fine winding tendrils
That strangle the heart

They say that promises
Sweeten the blow
But I don't need them
No, I don't need them

I've been treated so wrong
I've been treated so long
As if I'm becoming untouchable

I'm a slow dying flower
Frost killing hour
The sweet turning sour
And untouchable

O, I need
The darkness
The sweetness
The sadness
The weakness
I need this

I need
A lullaby
A kiss goodnight
Angel sweet
Love of my life
O, I need this

Do you remember the way
That you touched me before
All the trembling sweetness
I loved and adored?

Your face saving promises
Whispered like prayers
I don't need them
No, I don't need them

O, I need
The darkness
The sweetness
The sadness
The weakness
I need this

I need
A lullaby
A kiss goodnight
The angel sweet
Love of my life
I need this

Is it dark enough?
Can you see me?
Do you want me?
Can you reach me?
Or I'm leaving

You better shut your mouth
Hold your breath
Kiss me now you'll catch my death
O, I mean it.."

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